Yesterday....a hard day...a injure day for me...but u are not here with me...Feel like wanna die...
I buy drinks and drunk it on my car...park my car nearby Tasik and start drink!!...One short finish 4 can...muntah straight away...but keep drink until finish...really feel dizzy yesterday!!...after finishing....get down the car and walk along the Tasik....sit on the pondok that we crash last time...remember of u...looking at your pic...u are no more with me...cry...and cry...and cry....sleep at the pondok even...hug of the place that u been sitting for...a hard day for me without u in my life...feel like wanna kill myself....
Very dizzy...even back to home...muntah during shower...muntah hard...really pening of my head...muntah again...even on my bedroom...muntah all the while in toilet...from 8pm untill 2.00am midnite...I muntah until nothing to muntah...but keep want to muntah...muntah until my heart pain...my stomach pain...but still muntah...until acid2 split it out...
Never thought that it was such a hard time...mabuk badan but could not mabuk tenangan... at midnite looking for my handphone, trying to call my no. but accidently press his no.
Get my phone adi...I sleep in dizzy...wake up and muntah again....sleep back with dizzy again...few times...even today still dizzy...but...all this happen, u r not with me...I was hoping your hand could help me to release my feeling on my back...I was hoping u could hug me to the toilet to muntah...I was hoping u could give me a hot towel to clear my mind...but...when i need you...you are not arround!!...
Get into the office...saw your email....hurting!!...really hurting!!...doesn't thought that u could hurt me like this....put in red highlight and ask me to promise u on that...I guess...If I death...only i could fullfill your wish...
over the msg...u mention u received call from my house...but...u won't worry of me...rite??...if my house calling...u are not worrying that i may have some accident...or kill myself...or having some sickness and now in hospital wish to see u for the last time?...but...what u email to me...is to ask me not to contact u anymore...
even i kill myself...u won't worry is it??...For u...I was death adi is it??...then what for I'm still alive...U are already 1/2 o me...without u...i was alive without soul....then what for I'm still alive here??....I miss u...I luv u....
but y are u hurting me like this?!...why all this is happen to me?!...y my bf won't take the challenge on facing it?!...rather than choosing this as a decision?!...
Mention of be with me forever!!...mention of won't leave me anymore!!...mention of will work hard to achieve whatever in our life!!..but now....but now u r leaving me....
Leaving me without letting me noe your real reason....leaving me with your stainless steal heart...
I love u...I love the way u hurt me...I hate u...I hate the way u mention it is good for our future...
I buy drinks and drunk it on my car...park my car nearby Tasik and start drink!!...One short finish 4 can...muntah straight away...but keep drink until finish...really feel dizzy yesterday!!...after finishing....get down the car and walk along the Tasik....sit on the pondok that we crash last time...remember of u...looking at your pic...u are no more with me...cry...and cry...and cry....sleep at the pondok even...hug of the place that u been sitting for...a hard day for me without u in my life...feel like wanna kill myself....
Very dizzy...even back to home...muntah during shower...muntah hard...really pening of my head...muntah again...even on my bedroom...muntah all the while in toilet...from 8pm untill 2.00am midnite...I muntah until nothing to muntah...but keep want to muntah...muntah until my heart pain...my stomach pain...but still muntah...until acid2 split it out...
Never thought that it was such a hard time...mabuk badan but could not mabuk tenangan... at midnite looking for my handphone, trying to call my no. but accidently press his no.
Get my phone adi...I sleep in dizzy...wake up and muntah again....sleep back with dizzy again...few times...even today still dizzy...but...all this happen, u r not with me...I was hoping your hand could help me to release my feeling on my back...I was hoping u could hug me to the toilet to muntah...I was hoping u could give me a hot towel to clear my mind...but...when i need you...you are not arround!!...
Get into the office...saw your email....hurting!!...really hurting!!...doesn't thought that u could hurt me like this....put in red highlight and ask me to promise u on that...I guess...If I death...only i could fullfill your wish...
over the msg...u mention u received call from my house...but...u won't worry of me...rite??...if my house calling...u are not worrying that i may have some accident...or kill myself...or having some sickness and now in hospital wish to see u for the last time?...but...what u email to me...is to ask me not to contact u anymore...
even i kill myself...u won't worry is it??...For u...I was death adi is it??...then what for I'm still alive...U are already 1/2 o me...without u...i was alive without soul....then what for I'm still alive here??....I miss u...I luv u....
but y are u hurting me like this?!...why all this is happen to me?!...y my bf won't take the challenge on facing it?!...rather than choosing this as a decision?!...
Mention of be with me forever!!...mention of won't leave me anymore!!...mention of will work hard to achieve whatever in our life!!..but now....but now u r leaving me....
Leaving me without letting me noe your real reason....leaving me with your stainless steal heart...
I love u...I love the way u hurt me...I hate u...I hate the way u mention it is good for our future...
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