A last day that i could saw him....during my trip...he mention will give me good news after I come back...but...at the end....the answer is still same....I had ask him to think properly...deeply...after I come back let me know the answer...
During my trip...he agreed to be with me...but when I come back...he leave me again...3rd times...my heart feel like it's not mind....hurt until couldn't control...feel like wanna kill myself...couldn't stand for it anymore..I rather not come back from Taiwan...at least u will still msg to me...at least I'm still your gf....at least I am still...at least.....
Why he couldn't work with me together to try?!...not even try...why never try our best to get the bless from them?! I could merayu...merayu in front of his house until your father could let us to be together...I could learn Tamil, I cook Indian Food, I never eat beef on my entire life, I'll learn Indian culture...I believe with my hardwork, things could become miracle...I could merayu in front of his house no matters raining, sunny day, tunder come...until your father could let us to be together....but all my planning of hardwork...been stop not by your parents...is by you...why??...why u even not to try...I believe with our hardwork...we could make miracle...or is it u affraid of your parent even get to know??...not even wanna let them know because it will hurts them is it?...
No use adi...no use adi if I wanna do my part but u disagree...anyhow...I mention that I agree your decision after u my trip...I HAVE to agree...although we have hope to make things become miracle...but when u not agree...I HAVE to accept...I feel like...your luv on me is not as that deep as Myself to you...as I willing to spend a year to try...although it is win or lose...I accept the fact...but why not u?..
I couldn't accept the fact of u leaving me...as u promise to me u will be with me forever...u mention we are different...as your sibling is know about us and they accept and they could help us to convience your parent...but now....u said it couldn't....If I die also...It is nothing for you is it??...
today is the last day that I could meet you in my life...I was promise on u I won't cry but...I'm not that strong as u think!!...I couldn't stand the pain of u leaving me...the hug that u give me...the kiss that u lastly given to me...when I meet u that time...I had a lot of things to say...but...I stop myself...as...u had decided...u decided not given a try....why??...u affraid of hurting your family but u not affraid of hurting me??...I am nothing for u??
When u mention u send me back to my car...we walk along...I walk very slow...very2 slow...u ask me why? I said nothing.....In fact, I wanna tell u...I hope that the road never end...so then u could hold my hand and keep walk and walk...and walk...until we get old and entire of our life...
But...why the road is very short!!...very short like clip my eyes once and it's arrive...I wish to hold your hand until our entire of our life...u mention relaxly...ask me to forget u...get a guy to married and get 2 children....
It's hard to forget u....u had utilize full of my heart....and now u leave me...let me suffer for the pain...if u are to giv me happiness...u noe that u shouldn't leave me....u said u treat me like a princess if I be with u...and now when I be with you...u treat me like a mad gal...a mad gal that always cry...no mood to do anything...no happiness in my life....
I dunno how to take care...as I dunno how to take care without u....sometime will feel like wanna hurt myself...when hurt myself...mayb u will come and see me...sometime feel like wanna crash in an accident....so that when I get into hospital...mayb u will come and see me...seriously...nows a day I feel like I'm not concerntrate when driving...emergency brake...when saw a motorist will keep looking...thought that was u...imagine that was u too...
arr...what i should do?? kill myself better than stay in this current situation........
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